Yeah, still in my slump but I did more today to act like a real person. I ate twice today. I also finished correcting the papers I had to do so that grades can be calculated. Did I mention that my friend/driver/pseudo-mom who is taking me to the infusion center offered to crunch the numbers for my five-week averages? Give that woman an award, please!
I even cleaned my tiny bathroom, except for the shower. I'll get to it, I promise. It just sucks the life out of me to scrub that thing down. I took out the garbage and the recyclables. I showered and dressed myself.
To demonstrate the true depths of my depression I will share with you that I purchased a small cheesecake on Friday that has still not been touched. I have a can of Pringles that is still unopened. This depression is great for the whole non-eating part of it. Less dishes to wash also.
On Facebook today I had a message from a college gal pal that mentioned that my freshman year roommate also has MS. Is that the weirdest coincidence or what? Now I can say I know someone my age who has it.
Of course, I have not known her for about 15 years now but I am trying to get in touch with her. Do other MSers do this sort of thing, try to find someone their age to compare notes with? I'm interested to see what symptoms she has and what treatments she has tried. The only thing I remember about her is that she got married shortly after college and I think she has some children.
It's like this weird but comforting connection to say, "I know someone else who has this disease."
I am trying not to think about work on Tuesday. I will have to input grades at home Monday night and work on Tuesday plans. I guess I'm a lot like little babies when they play peek-a-boo and laugh when they see you again. They think it's magical how you disappear and reappear. I'm trying to pretend that work is done even though I know it's not. That is one constant in my world, along with the depression.
Tomorrow is Tysabri infusion number one.
2 comments:
Wow, you actually got a lot done today. Trash, recycling, bathroom (sans shower), you showered AND dressed. Not to mention grading. You rock girl!!
Good luck tomorrow. I'm thinking of you.
When I first started teaching (1999) I became really close with the OT. It wasn't until 2 years ago I started telling her about my MS. It is a coincidence that she also has it. It has been such a blessing to have her in my life to talk to. It is so awful to have MS happen to a close friend of yours but at the same time we are a great support group for each other. I think it will be great if you can connect w/ your roommate again.
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