Wednesday, October 8, 2008

Back at it, post Tysabri

I'm sufficiently medicated to make it to work so off I went today. Two of my students actually wrote me little cards hoping that I was feeling better and that my MS was gone. That was nice of them, wasn't it?

Two more days of work and then a three-day weekend and another professional day after that with no kids. That means next week will also be a short teaching week. I suspect that will be best for me as it may hopefully keep some of the panic away.

It's amazing how much this depression takes away from me, especially in conjunction with the cognitive issues of MS. The panic becomes overwhelming for no real reason. The meds just mask it all and allow me to be productive. Take away the meds and it all falls apart.

Day two post-Tysabri found me slightly dizzy on and off throughout the day and my low back aches, and no, it is not PMS.

I am wondering what the cost will be for my infusion palace. I hope it's affordable because it truly is a lovely place. If anyone wants to ride along one of these days and view the coffee bar, let me know.

I'm still having trouble falling asleep at night. I chock that up to the mental issues rolling around at the moment.

That's all I've got. I hope things are well in your part of the cyber world.


Denver Refashionista said...

Weebs, I also see myself in your struggles. I am finding that staying present as much as possible helps. I use my ujayi breathing from yoga to help me through physical and menatl pain. It does seem to be helping a little.

You are not alone!

Blindbeard said...

I have been on my antidepressants and antianxiety meds for so long I had forgotten how it felt before the meds caught up to my crazy. Your post reminded me. I can recall that I could still hear the screaming inside even though I was functioning outside, it that makes any sense. I don't hear the screaming too often anymore, now I just get blue from time to time -- the kind of blues where I would rather hide under the bed than leave the house.

Weeble Girl said...

Thanks DR and BB! Us creative types need to stick together and work through all the angst.

I'm all about better living through pharmaceuticals.