Monday, December 15, 2008

Day 3 and Bob won Survivor

Weight: Gigantor

Cigarettes
: 0

Alcohol: 0

Mood: Somewhat blah but not completely

MS: Mostly fatigue with some lower back pain, some twitches

Exercise: Yesterday was a one-mile Walk Away The Pounds DVD, then a restorative yoga pose with my ice pack

I am a huge Survivor fan, not meant to be a play on words but so true, and Bob the physics teacher (age 57, methinks) from Maine won. Yippee! He's who I was hoping for even though I couldn't stay awake to see the whole thing. Go Bob, finally someone won who deserved it. He outplayed them all!

I am hanging in there with the cereal deal and thinking about food less except when I am hungry and then realize its time to actually eat. There's so much less boredom or depression eating with this plan. That's a good thing.

I'm not feeling very inspired today but as for the weight it serves a purpose with others so that when they look at me they probably won't approach me, which I wrote about yesterday. Weight as the insulation and barrier. Weight also serves a purpose for me in that if people don't approach me then I can use negative self-talk about me and to me to try and hurt myself and my feelings.

I'm really good at it because I grew up feeling kinda lousy about myself so I keep at it. It's like I don't know how to eat healthily and I don't know how to treat myself well and good and kindly so I keep doing what I know.

Time for a change.

6 comments:

LISA EMRICH said...

What a turn of events when Sugar voted against Manny, then Bob and Manny had to face off with the fire challenge. I was actually surprised at that choice.

For a moment there, I actually thought that Susie had it won. I agree that Bob played a fantastic game, geez, just look at how strong he was in challenges (except the house of cards).

It was fun. Keep up the positive attitude on the cereal thing. I'm cheering you on.

Denver Refashionista said...

It can be very hard to break out of the rut. I recommend you just keep up the excercise and it will help :)

Webster said...

Congratulations on Day three. You are making it sound easy.
I don't watch Survivor, so I have no comment there.
And ditto on what Refashionista said. Exercise is your friend.

Jen said...

Hi Weebs--

I'm listening.

Jen (smiling face)

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