Saturday, September 27, 2008

A step forward

This will be short but I've done something proactive this evening and asked for help. I called the special ed teacher who works in my room and asked her to help me with teaching. She said okay and she'll start teaching most of my ELA and Math in the mornings.

I'm not one to ask for help but she had offered at the beginning of the year to do this so her brain wouldn't rot while she had to listen to me blather on and deal with the inclusion students. She wants to be active and help out so I am putting her out there as the point-woman and I can tag in and provide support for a while.

I am hoping this may be the thing to get me through to the point where new or increased meds can help with the depression.

I also went to the hospital lab this morning and had the JC virus titer done that is needed for the Tysabri wheels to continue to turn. Yesterday I received an approval letter from my insurance company for Tysabri. It looks like major medical should be making this a viable financial option for me.

I also went to see my parents this morning and picked up my birthday loot. I got some nice things but I think they also had the chance to see that I'm not doing so well. I look like hell and feel like it, too.

The big thing is that I asked for help. I have to be proud of me for that.

5 comments:

Heather said...

If you have the extra support in your classroom and they are willing to help you then you did the right thing in asking for help. I'm sure it was hard but I think in the end you will be so happy you did this. Keep us posted on how it works out.

Blindbeard said...

Good for you to be able to ask for help. I find that one of the hardest things to do. I'm such a hardheaded I-can-do-it-MYSELF kind of person that it cripples me more than helps. Good luck fighting the black demon of depression!

LISA EMRICH said...

Can you hearing me cheering for you from down south?

Good for you for tapping into your reserves and resources in the classroom. Good for you for keeping on track in preparation of Tysabri. Good for you for meeting with your folks and not hiding yourself from them.

And most importantly, good for you for seeking help and taking such good care of yourself. Yeah!!

Shauna said...

And I'm cheering for you from the Great White North.....

S.

pUNKrOCKfairy said...

My congrats as well on asking for help... I haven't really figured it out yet myself. I'm curious, what grade do you teach? If your dealing with monsters under the age of 10 every day, you have my sympathies.

BTW, I think we live in the same town in Florida. Melbourne?

Oh, and happy birthday! It's never too late to have birthday cake!