Sunday, November 21, 2010

Two weeks, still breathing

Tomorrow will be two weeks since my Dad died.

I have gone back to work and worked four days last week. This week I will work two more days and then have five days off for Thanksgiving break.

Sometimes it is easier than in other moments.

Thanksgiving will be difficult. It will be just my Mom and me. I have ordered a precooked turkey dinner with the fixings for the two of us. I will miss my Dad carving the turkey and sitting at the end of the table. I will miss my brother, who left today for Afghanistan, and my sister, who left last Sunday to go back to Ft. Campbell.

My Mom adopted a little kitten on Friday. His name is Theodore or Teddy Bear. He's adorable and loves my Mom already. I am glad to hear that he purrs loudly and sleeps on the bed with her.

I am grateful my brother had security hooked up for my Mom's house. It will be hard for her tonight, the first night alone without my Dad or my siblings in the house. I am grateful for Teddy being with my Mom tonight.

I am thankful for my supportive friends, especially BJM who unfortunately knows these waters herself after losing her dad four years ago.

I am thankful for all my wonderful students who have missed me and told me so.

I am thankful for many things in my life even during this time of sorrow.

I miss you Daddy.


Mike said...

I am so there with you. My father passed on the 13th. With both him and mom gone (She passed in 2006) the holidays just will not be the same.

I am sure you, like myself, will get through this holiday season. Likely, there will be lots of tears and heavy hearts. In the end, we will persevere and come out the other side just a little stronger.

My blessings to you and your family. I hope that you find a million reasons to smile and laugh despite the heartache you carry. In case you can't, let me pass on something my father had told me earlier this year (I cleaned it up since his way of talking was occasionally not fit for print, lol).

"Do not mourn my passing. Instead, celebrate the life I lived."

Weeble Girl said...

Thank you Mike for your kind words. I am so sorry to read about your recent loss also.

We WILL come out the other side just a little stronger.


Anonymous said...

I just found your blog today. I am 43 and have been living with MS for 10 years. I admire you for creating a blog and for the writing you are doing.

I read your archived, "Letter to My Dad" and I cried with you. My Dad died suddenly (3 months from malignant melanoma diagnosis to death) 2 years ago. Having a place to talk about all the feelings I had then would have been nice.

My thoughts will be with you and your mother this holiday season.