Sunday, May 29, 2011

Pre-Memorial Day thoughts

I'm watching a spectacular PBS show for Memorial Day. Gary Sinise is always on these shows because he's such a big supporter of the troops.

Many of you who know me, know that my brother and sister are both in the Army. My sister is getting out and joining the Reserves at the end of September. She is a captain and has served two tours: one in Iraq and one in Afghanistan. She is currently home safe and done being deployed. My brother is a Staff Sergeant and he is serving his second tour; his first was in Iraq and he is now also in Afghanistan.

Not a day goes by that I don't worry about our troops and especially my brother. They do the impossible in sometimes the most difficult and dangerous situations.

My Dad was an Air Force veteran who served as a meteorologist in the Vietnam War. My grandfather served in World War II.

I'm proud of all our troops, past and present, who have taken upon themselves to do what has been needed to be done.

Saturday, May 28, 2011


It's such a relief to know that I do not have breast cancer. I find myself tearing up at anything that has to do with breast cancer on the television. But for the grace of God....

Thank you Lord for my life, my health, my family, my friends, my job, and the many accoutrements that go hand in hand with my quiet and wonderful existence. I have so many gifts that may seem small and petty to others but I hold them dear to me. My few close friends are simply divine people that I wouldn't change for the world. I am in remission from my multiple sclerosis and I have less than a month left of school until I can revel in summer vacation.

I walked again last night but not tonight. Today was more of a low-key sleep the day away kind of dealio. I was so tired and had no gumption to do much. I see more movement on the horizon for tomorrow. I'll be going over to my Mom's house and we're going all out with some barbecued chicken, spare ribs and some sides from a local BBQ place. I'm looking forward to that.

Happy Memorial Day to you and yours and to all our military personnel, past and present, especially my brother and sister.

Wednesday, May 25, 2011

All clear

The gammagram wasn't horrible but it took a loooong time. Regardless, I am cancer-free! Now this girl has some diabetes to whoop over these next few months.

Thanks for your thoughts and prayers,

Tuesday, May 24, 2011

One more day...

One more day until the gammagram and finally some news. I either get to stop worrying or I turn myself into a whirling dervish who is on a one-way path to getting better. In the meantime I have walked the last two evenings to get some movement going with this body and to help deal with the feelings of nervousness.

I need to stop bullshitting myself about this whole bit with my diabetes. My glucose numbers are all out of whack because I am only taking one Metformin pill a day instead of the four I was taking because of all my bowel explosion issues. I am still taking Glipizide and my Victoza shot but it seems that all I eat is carbs, carbs, and more carbs. I have at least got myself to the point where I am taking my blood sugar numbers once a day; all this after months of hardly any readings.

It's time to start really thinking about what I am eating and exercising regularly again. I feel better when I eat better and I move more, yet I am a slack ass and I don't do it nearly enough. Time to pull out my Geneen Roth books, dust them off, and find those pages that ring true for me.

How is it that we as women often sabotage ourselves as if we don't deserve to be fit and healthy? We put ourselves last on the list and I don't even have a family of my own to take care of, no hubby anymore or kiddos, so what the heck is my reason for acting so piss poor lately? Why do I let myself fall apart and gel into this giant body?

It's time to focus on me more and getting healthier. I can win the fight against diabetes and I can get it under control again. I have summer vacation coming up and I will have all sorts of time to take care of me in many different ways.

Wishing you health and happiness, Weebs

Monday, May 23, 2011

Gammagram scheduled

The gammagram has been scheduled for this Wednesday afternoon. It's great that it's coming up so soon because I am going just a wee bit crazy with the voices in my head. The biggest let-down is that my insurance won't pay for the procedure so I am paying $402.10 out of my own pocket, but thankfully I can submit that to my flex plan.

I was so wound up this evening that I took a walk to get some of my nervousness out. It actually worked and has calmed me down some. Yippee!!

If I have cancer then I am jumping on the bandwagon and dealing with it immediately. I have no plans for waiting and seeing; I want it gone and whatever needs to be done will be done.

It is almost summer vacation and there is exactly one month left of school with students. Will I spend it working on getting healthier and dealing with my diabetes or will I be getting treatments to deal with breast cancer?

I guess that answer will be coming soon.

Sunday, May 22, 2011

New news update

I made it to my Friday follow-up appointment and had a repeat mammogram and ultrasound on my left breast. After comparing all three films (Friday's, the previous Friday's and my last mammo several years ago) the doctor decided that something was there but we're not sure what it is yet.

It could be nothing, it could be something.

So, we're not watching and waiting for a year and we're not running to the doctor's office yet. Instead the mammo place is sending the results to my gynecologist's office and then they are supposed to set up an appointment for a gammagram.

A gammagram is kind of like a mammogram but you get to sit down the whole time and they don't squish you anywhere near as much as in a mammogram. What happens is they inject some dye into your arm and it travels throughout your body. For some reason, the dye pools into any cancerous areas in your breast(s) and it shows up as dark spots. This is supposed to be a quick (an hour or less), easy, and less painful way to get a diagnosis or an all-clear.

Results are given to you that day, according to the pamphlet that they gave me.

I am now waiting for that next appointment to be set up. Am I a little nervous? Sure I am, but I figure that if, and that's a big if, this is cancer then this is the best time to have it. It's the end of the school year in another month and then on to summer vacation so I wouldn't need to miss work.

If it's an all-clear then woohoo to that.

As always, I do promise to keep you updated when I have more news. Thanks for reading and for your support. :)

Wednesday, May 18, 2011

New news

My mom had some major surgery on Monday and is now home and recovering wonderfully. I'm very pleased for that bit of goodness in my life.

I'm also delighted that my back has *finally* stopped acting up after a few weeks of miserableness after the MS Walk back on May 1st.

I am almost to the point of where I actually miss my students as I have been out of the classroom since last Friday, working on scoring state math tests for the week. I won't be back in again until next Monday and then we have two four day weeks in a row thanks to the observance of Memorial Day. I love short weeks now that testing is over.

I do have to go back in for more mammography films on Friday. I went in last Friday and have been waiting to hear about the results. They had to get my films from another place from about 7 years ago so I'm not sure if there have been changes since then or what the dealio is. I'm not going to worry too much about it until the new films are done and I have more information. No sense getting myself all tied up in knots, right?

What will be, will be and I promise to update you once I know anything.

This past Saturday I spent 12 hours card making and being a Stampin' Up! vendor at a scrapbooking event. It was good but such a long day for me as we arrived around 7:40 and didn't leave until after 9 in the evening.

What have I been doing for myself lately?
1.) Painting my fingernails all sorts of wonderfully, bright colors.
2.) Sleeping in an extra 5 minutes in the morning.
3.) Putting myself on a spending hiatus from Stampin' Up!
4.) And generally being my positive and happy self

Time to go do my nails... I'll write again soon.

Sunday, May 8, 2011

Happy Mother's Day

To the few, the remaining readers of this blog with the dwindling number of posts, I wish those of you who deserve it a wonderful Mother's Day. That goes for all fur-baby and human baby mothers, those who nurture and support others' children, and to those single Dads who have to act as both Mom and Dad. I salute you! :)

I am a fur-baby mom but my kitty boy is such an important part of my life. Then I am also a "sorta-mom" to all the kiddos in my classes when they need to talk or spout off or let me into their lives. I am blessed to have such a fantastic occupation where I have the ability to remain a teacher, a guide, a helper, a listener, and sometimes I have the opportunity to make their day with a helpful or supportive comment.

My students have completed the ELA portion of their state tests followed by this week's two days of math. Then I will be out of the class on Friday for training and then out all next week for scoring. That will be a surreal period of time to be away from my kiddos for so long. May the force be with their long-term substitute!

The MS Walk totals are still being added up but for right now I am still the number one fundraiser for individuals for our walk. Our team is still in fourth place overall and I remain psyched and proud of all of our walkers. It was another fabulous experience and so much fun to bring people in my life to meet up with others from different areas.

Wishing you glorious weather for the days ahead. Weebs :)

Sunday, May 1, 2011

2011 MS Walk

Our team has successfully completed another MS Walk. If I say so myself, and I am saying so, we had the coolest T-shirts at the walk. I know this because another person even stopped us to tell us that!

I did the 3-mile walk with BJM and another friend. The rest of our merry walkers split up into other groups of people doing either the 3 or 5-mile jaunt. Some of us were even on TV tonight which is just the bomb.

I'm so proud to have so many awesome friends who took time out of a beautiful Sunday morning to come and spend time with me, to walk, and to raise money. I am a lucky, lucky girl!

I know I have once again been remiss at keeping this thing updated. I hope to get back to it fully once summer vacation is here. Unfortunately, that isn't until the end of June. In the meantime I will let you know that I am doing my best to check my blood sugar levels once a day and that the bowel blow-outs have stopped thanks to the discontinuance of a diabetes medication.

The stamping thing is going well and I am having a blast with it. I am making some money through sales to friends and orders from myself. I seem to have a new addiction and it's calorie-free but it does get a bit costly.

Happy May to all!